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hui this is really short ijsut need to get htis aout somewjere

ok iunkmow this willriobably pass and Stuff buti think my boyfriend si like genuinely genuinely getting sick of me like i actually think he doesnt likeme anymore and itsmy fault because i was so idont knmowi ifeel so bad isohuldve said more and done more whyam iso dumb

thgese past few days when we call it feels so awkward and im too scared to say anything ebcause i dont wanna make it worse and i think when i do talk i just sound stupid and weird and idont think he lieks me anymore i can like feel it and itfeels like he doesnt wantto speak to me anymore and it make sme feel sick ifeel so dumb ohynmgod. hes been hanging pout with people more and i think he enjoys their presence more than mine and that really sucks i hate it i hate it so much i hate knlwing that i hate it ihate it i dont know what i did wrong im too nervous to ask i dont wanna look needy and annoying and piush him away even more ifeel so idiotic

hes on callwith othger people right now. i could join if i wanted to nobody is stopping me but i think if i will ill ruin it i hate thus so much iacutally hate veryiekbne idont wanna be al;one but i literlalky have nobody elkse to talk to anyway if he starts tohate me idont know whta ill do idont know what i diod but i wanna fix it ifeel anuseous im teasring up rlly bad rightnow

wish i was homnura akemi.homyura akemi would save me right now im so sad why do i havwe to be like this im acutlaly so annoyed right now Ugh. i hope whoe ver is reading this i shaving a good day. to whoever is the One person following my blog: hi. hope youre ok. i feel so stupid right now UGHUH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EDIT: hi. im editting this after writing it. its been like a few hours since i posted thius. i think ill be ok. i was kinda overreacting. im still very paranoid but i dont think its that seirous